Here is my attempt at answering these questions:
- What do I want to accomplish? I want to earn a living from home so that I will be more accessible to my child and other wonderful family members if they need me. I want to be able to manage my time so that I enjoy life fully and take nothing for granted. I want to get ahead and not tread water all the time. I want to have many happy returning customers and steady orders. I want success! More importantly I want freedom...
- How can I make what I made? Now this is perplexing... I am not going to say what I made outright but with over a decade of experience in the classroom and a Master's Degree I made a decent amount. I've always wanted more that what I made because I spent a lot on my classroom and had a lot of debt so I always felt like treading water. Right now I feel like I am sinking so to make what I made it is the first goal. To accomplish that I want to have at least 20 orders a day since I do not have a lot of "higher priced" items. Either than or change my inventory to a higher price point and sell at least 10 items a day. In order to increase the number of orders, I need to list my items consistently and have at least 30-40 listings end each day. My concern about this plan is the listing/eBay fees. All this additional activity would equal additional expenses. Would that cancel out the profits?
- How can I make even more? I don't know. I want to have multiple streams of income that is why it is a dream to learn how to properly monetize websites through blogging as well as continuing my eBay business. I want to become a skilled artisan and make high end jewelry. Right now I am starting out with costume/fashion jewelry. As my skills grow, I hope my profit grows too.
- How can I balance my time between work and being mommy? Again a tough one... I have to work when she's asleep. What I am finding is that I'm tired too. I think I just have to push through and make a priority list each day of what needs to be completed. I don't rest until it's done. Raising my daughter will always be number one on that list. I can also include her in some of the activities. It's so cute that she pretends to bubble wrap her toys and takes them to the post office. She helps me already get the labels off the printer and puts the packages in the bag to take to the post office. She even gets the receipt from the postal workers at the post office when we drop off the packages. Oh and she goes with me when I am hunting for treasures to sell. I just need to be more productive with squeezing in listing time and accept that I cannot have a long expanse of time to just work. It needs to be broken into smaller chunks. (Please note this is very hard for me so it is a work in progress.)
There are even more questions bouncing around in my head. The worst ones are "Can you even do this? Are you going to give up? Are you failing your family by chasing your dream? Are you being selfish for wanting this?"
To these questions I say "Choose Joy!" That's my mantra this year. I am trying to push out these negative thoughts as fast as they pop in my head. I keep praying to the Lord for guidance and praying that I will see the doors He opens for me. I pray that if he wants me to change paths he makes it abundantly clear. I am listening hard for the Still Soft Voice and I am putting my life in the Lord's Hands. I hope I am not being selfish. I pray that I learn from any lessons He places before me...
On that note, I better get to working this plan!